Thursday, March 10, 2011

The Start: 365

March 8, 2011 was an incredibly challenging day for me. I was fired from my job; a job I thought I was going to be employed at until I retired or died. The week prior I had a difficult call and I did not handle it to the best of my ability. I became heated and said things no one in the customer care profession should say. Did I do wrong? Yes. Did I see myself getting written up for it? No. Did I see myself getting fired for it? Absolutely not. But the decisions were made and I left 30 minutes after I arrived to work that day. And I sobbed uncontrollably for hours.

I since have been granted unemployment as it was deemed I did not do what I did out of retaliation of the employer, but rather lack of judgment. I like to believe that this was a blessing in disguise. I really was not happy at my job and I was sick with anxiety every day, worrying about if I was going to get into another confrontation with my boss over something as silly as adding simple addition formulas in an Excel spreadsheet. We certainly did not see eye-to-eye. We had several meetings where I would end up crying and wondering if the pay was worth dealing with the ridiculous drama. She would get mad when I would cry, and only when her supervisor stepped in did she realize she was out of line and would apologize.

I digress. It's a blessing. It's in the past and I can only move forward from here. I've been able to "come back to me," as I like to call it. I'm focusing on my thoughts, my actions and my feelings. I'm going back to the things I've always loved to do. I have been exploring cooking and baking to a degree I haven't ever before. I'm scrapbooking again. I'm working out again. I've decided to volunteer and hopefully *fingers crossed* will be a "Big" for Big Brothers Big Sisters of Manitowoc in a few weeks. I've started to write in my journals again.

I have a lot of work to do on myself. Overcoming my obstacles (anxiety, depression and chronic pain) and bettering myself. Doing what I love to do. I've decided to start the 365 Project. You can read about it here from the official website. I will take a photograph a day. I will probably take a photo of something I've done or accomplished that day, otherwise I will make it a duty or a commitment to try to take an artistic photo. And I will blog about it here.

3 comments:

  1. I wanna read more... :) Will you write more so I can read it? Please?

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  2. I'm working on it, I'm working on it!

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